Have you ever wanted to throw punch somebody but you know that the way life is set up you and orange is not your color? If you have Facebook than you know the “on this day” feature where it shows you the what you did on a particular day feature. It is nice and I love it most days. However though I have a strict mental rule to never post negative things on Facebook I found the snapshot of where I was a year ago to be disturbing.
To the average person the picture was harmless. On the post I even was grateful for the progress made. Today something in me wasn’t right and its been a long time I allowed me to remember the dark side of life. Every picture taken isn’t always a picture of glory. Some pictures remind you of pain and that was my plight today. A year ago today I was working for a company that I seemingly loved. There was a few hiccups as like with any job. However when I think about the folks that were there that I didn’t like and the things that had transpired. I got a little upset today. I also got mad when I thought about the small transition between the job as well.
I remember crying saying I didn’t want to be a full-time stay at home mom but I refused to take a part-time position. I also had to pull my son out of his daycare that he absolutely loved. It was a mess. Being an adult and a parent often times can be very difficult at tines. However I had to do what I had to do. However that didn’t make me feel any better. Then on top of that I had to deal with how I was feeling but I knew that it would work out. I never doubted but I sure wavered a few times. It was scary. I had been a stay at home mom for quite some time and I didn’t want to revert back. I also enjoyed making my own money as well.
However I didn’t have to wait long. I decided to take a temporary position that started a few weeks later. From that position I went to my permanent position working at a medical school. I love it. There were days at the temporary position I was ready to ball my fist and knock a few folks out. I consider myself a tough cookie but when you are working in a temporary position no matter how great of an employee you are you will find people undermining you just because they think you can. To top it off the temporary position was almost an hour away from home and the kids. So many days I found myself doing the Sonic the Hedgehog drive to get to where I needed to be.
One day I sat down and thought about my strengths and weaknesses. I decided that instead of just looking for work to just make ends meet, I would find a job that I could consider my dream position. I think everyone’s dream is to make the most money but I needed a job that was flexible on schedules, where my manager had true leadership, direct deposit and none of that pay you when I get to you type thing, and a list of other attributes. I decided to interview positions instead of focusing on getting the interview. It worked. I went to several interviews until I found the one that I loved and had most of my likes. Today instead of being frustrated about how much the experience was painful. I am super grateful that I am where I am. I had to release the energy that I was feeling so I can see my true blessings.
